It's quiet tonight. Well, quiet in my mind. There is nothing really to do, except throw myself into the work that I have been given over the past couple of days, and the work that I am creating for myself. I know that there are people successful at this...I can only hope that I can uncover this success...and if I can't, perhaps I will gain the guts I need to ask for help.

Tomorrow morning we head back to the south...where life is less than desirable, and things are never simple...but at least now I take with me a couple of things......

There is some kind of inner peace I have now...knowing you have pretty much seen me at my worst, which I guess was not as bad as I perceive it to be, but now that you know I don't have to stress so much about hiding it for fear of changing your mind about me. I am me, and I am glad you got to see the broken side of things...All I can say is those moments are generally quick, and though I try to wrap my head around them for a few days after, they go away and I return to reality...

I am not nearly torn about leaving as I have been the last times we have parted. I truly enjoyed the talks we had, and I think that they helped me realize the reality of the situation. You are not the flighty type, and stability being what I need...well...it works out well. We both have trust issues, but the fact that you have always come through on what you have told me allows me to calm down a bit, and I find myself more willing to trust words. I feel less concerned about you ignoring me or avoiding me because I've made you mad or you just dont want me around anymore...and my feelings are based more in the reality of how you feel. I guess I need to say thanks for sharing some stuff, the talking really was nice.

At any rate...I will miss being able to see you...being able to watch you sleep and know you are there...but I know that you are there, and if I need you, you are only a phone call or IM away. It wont be but a few weeks until I get to see you again, and I am very very excited about meeting your mom and sisters. Im not so much starting a countdown again...but I am looking forward to it. As always, time I get to spend with you makes me happy...so there you go...

Thankyou for everything my love...it was a wonderful couple of weeks and I really enjoyed it. With so much to work for now, it seems the future has direction, and for once I rise to meet it rather than dreading it.

So long Ohio...until next time. (A few months, tops.)