Broken. Scattered. Shattered. Torn.

Alone in the silence of the night,
My thoughts drift.
Fear grips me, am I losing sight?
What is real anymore?

The infinite sadness of my mind,
It won't leave me alone!
Let me be, grow, thrive, and find,
That which I am meant to be.

I want so much to be unbroken,
To be normal, and whole,
But it hurts inside, though unspoken,
I want so much to be what I should.

I know life is hard and rough,
But every day is not supposed to be this,
Disparity, it's just tough,
Why can't I leave the dark behind?

Smiles are addictive, happiness is great,
But the poison is in my brain,
I hide it away, keep it locked behind a gate,
But there it is again.

Why can't I be normal and free?
To be what you deserve...
What is this haunting me?
Im so used to hiding the pain...

Revert back to times long gone,
No one cares, sewing up the wounds,
In the dark, to the tune of a sad song,
Forever shattered, lost, broken, and torn.